Friday, July 06, 2007

The learning curve

Today was a hard day. It was rough emotionally, rough physically and it was rough on my pride.

I learned through my bad day. I learned that it is not always possible to please everyone. This is especially true in the wedding world. I learned that it is hard to admit when you have not done your best- and the person it is hardest to admit it to is yourself. I learned that I cannot take on too much at a time. I learned to not be afraid of hard conversations. I learned that there is joy in handling uncomfortable situations well. I learned that I love my job so much that I often forget that it is a business. I do need to treat it as such.

What I learned most is that I still need to learn. No matter how many years you are away from receiving your diploma, learning never stops. This type of learning is not like cramming for an exam: it is painful and humbling, but ends up being motivating and inspiring.

This has been both one of the most rewarding and most difficult years of my life. Lots of incredible weddings, wonderful clients, awards & rave reviews, growth, a baby, lots of family & friend time and also death, grief, stress, overworking, moving, transitioning and learning. Tonight, as I am dealing with the hurt from my day, I have been reminded of how fortunate I am. I have an amazing husband who is unselfish, inspiring and a ceaseless encourager. I have a baby boy on the way- a true gift of God that I never thought I would be able to receive. I have an incredible family- full of love, goofiness and authenticity. I have friends who know and love me for who I am. I have a deep love for my job & have been so blessed by the relationships that have come out of it. And I have been given grace by the Almighty God.

A good lesson to end a tough day.

4 comments:

chrissie said...

I can totally relate to your humbling, difficult day. Ummmm, that is a common occurence for me!
Thanks for being transparent about it.
It is painful, and yet realizing our weakness is such a good place to be!
You are beautiful, talented and forgiven!
Praise God for his grace.
Love,
Chrissie Rouse

david.toney said...

and you always have unconditional love from gordon

Jasmine said...

I'll be praying for you! And if you're learning a lesson from this experience, you'll destined to be a better person because of it.
xoxo...

Ashley said...

Amen.

What's even more a blessing is that through the Joy God provides us, we experience many more joyful and wonderful days than hard days, so we can endure and cherish the lessons from the hard days when they do come.

There are only many more blessings to come for your life and your family, Courtney. I'm so excited for it! God is so pleased and in love with you!

Love you lady! Grace and peace abounds!